Ok, I have made it to now, whatever now is. Anyways, I have been thinking about the concept of time. It remains controversial if time exists in Heaven, or if it exists in the same form we experience it here on Earth. Many believe God is outside of time and space, although He can operate inside of it. He does so in part to communicate to us. In a religion course I took last quarter at my secular university I had to answer an essay question about the purpose of time. Believing that God operates outside of time, I think God may use time as a form of communication to us, His creatures. He may desire for us to understand that we only have a limited amount of "time" here. It may be an obvious way for us to see that we were created to have a "time" here on Earth and then leave this behind for our eternal home. It may be neccessary for us to have this contraint in order to begin to understand God's bigger purpose. Also, God created all things, and they all have purposes. Time is not an excepion. Although we do not know the reasoning exactly, we must keep remembering that we truly only do have a limited amount of days on Earth as He has numbered our days and ordered our steps. Praise God that when our days our up we get to spend eternity with Him and loved ones in the Lord who have gone before us. I am sure they already got the party started for us up there. I can't wait!

I decided to start a blog to write down my thoughts and prayers after losing my boyfriend. We had been talking about marriage for quite awhile. He passed away unexpectedly (not that anyone truly ever expects it) less than a month ago. I prefer to say that he moved to Heaven which is the truth of the matter. I miss him desperately and know I will see him again just as soon as I fulfill my purpose here on Earth. I am praying that it not be a second longer than that. My Pastor helped me see that God has difficult decisions to make. He had to decide whether to give me my boyfriend for the time period He did or not at all. Thank God that He decided to let me have him in my life for the time He did. I will praise God each day of my life for that because it was and is a tremendous blessing. I had already been going to school to become a counselor, and I didn't know what population I wanted to focus on. I love the elderly, and I hope to help people deal with crisis situations, including death. I trust God will lead me wherever I go as He has ordered my steps and my days have been ordained.